allielujah snapped

Yesterday, I received the new that I will not have work study this year due to budge cuts. No email, no phone call, nothing when they first found out. It instead took me going down there for another reason, then just thinking to ask, and for her to tell me. And ultimately ruin my day, for at least a couple of hours.

I dislike going to financial aid anyway due to the fact the receptionists are always rude and always look mad. I understand that they deal with incompetent and rude people all day, every day. That does not give them the right, though, to immediately act mad at every person who walks in there. No one wants to go in there that I know of, and it has nothing to do with the time it takes, the ridiculousness of the things we have to do, the tediousness of it. It all boils down to their rude, pissed off faces, their short comments and the fact that they look at you with such distaste just for walking in there.

After hearing my news, I made it to the elevator before I started crying. I sat in my car for ten minutes crying, texting the few people I knew weren't busy so I could complain. I went to my nanny job about an hour early just because I could not stand going home. I called Maxwell at work and told him.

I immediately felt useless. The daycare job I had lined up also has fallen through (maybe not, but it was supposed to open last week but nothing has yet to happen), so this was just another blow. I finally found a job I love, though, through this work study and now...it's just gone. Now, I'm back at square one and have to go around and beg for jobs. I'm going to go by my old daycare job and see if I could just get at least ten hours a week. I'm going to put up ads around the university center declaring my Awesome Babysitter status.

Maybe I can get some paid photography gigs, though I'm sure that's me just wishing and hoping.

I'm sure it will be okay. I'm feeling better about it all today. It was just such a huge blow and, frankly, I was more upset over the fact that it took me asking to be informed of this news.

On another note, I purchased a cross stitch yesterday from Hobby Lobby. It was a $2 one, so supposedly simple but it's been so long since I've done one, I'm almost confused. I'm going to look up a youtube video and refresh my memory. It's an adorable hedgehog holding a balloon.

I purchased it because I found some pin-up cross stitch patterns that I desperately wish to make and hang up around the house. But I know I need so much practice. So I'm going to continue buying these $2 ones, then gradually go up until I feel ready to take on the pin-up one. Plus, I really really needed a new craft endeavor. My knitting has put itself on hold. I cannot seem to pick it back up again, though I will get over that eventually. I hope at least.